still trucking

yeah I promised to expound on the HMR character types, but that will have to wait.  Had a very stressful weekend.  I almost cheated, but I didn't.  Still losing weight.  Trying to stay employed

Roles

After having gone through the HMR program twice, and starting my third program last week.  I have noticed a certain pattern of characters among the dieters.  In class today it seemed as though all of them were on display.  I actually wrote them down, but since I have been up since 3am, I don;t remember them right now.  When I get home, I copy my notes.  So I'm a judgmental ass, deal with it.  I certainly don't exclude myself from any of these criticism, why would I excuse anyone else?  Besides, they're pretty funny, I swear.

Oh yeah, and I lost 10 pounds :P

I like entree's

or is it entrees, entrees'... whatever.  I think I'll do one entree a day.  Sort of takes the edge off. 

I've been plagiarized!

I was looking for other HMR blogs to follow or link too.  There are surprisingly few blogs chronicling the dieting endeavors of people on the HMR diet.  In my search I came across an older blog, HMR Girl.  It's old, the last post being Nov 20009, but I found an entry that looked familiar: http://www.blogtolose.com/profiles/blogs/hrm-recipe-cereal-muffins

Yup, that's my muffin recipe.  Nothing paraphrased, lifted with a few paragraphs and sentences removed, with no attributions.  On the one hand I'm not very pleased, someone posting my work as their own.  On the other, I think it is really cool.  I hope the recipe helped her and whoever else read her blog.  I would have just appreciated a track back link or something.  Well I'm not going to be too hard on her, it seems like she quit blogging after a week.  I hope she didn't quit the diet.

EDIT: While we're on the subject of recipes, here are a couple sites with some great ideas:

Hackley Health Management
http://www.hackleyhealthmanagement.com/recipes/

HMR Official page
http://www.hmrprogram.com/index.cfm/Recipes/FeaturedRecipe

Double EDIT:  HMR Girl commented on my recipe.   If you are still following HMR Girl, I hope your diet worked out for you.

so far so good

5 days in... headaches still, though they are subsiding.  Made my first midweek call.  Went fine.  Doing it again, I find the attitudes of the nurses and educators more subdued.  Maybe it is because they feel like they failed, though I suspect it is because they think I'll fail again... I'll show them :P

And so it begins...

For me anyway.  We're not supposed to start the diet until tomorrow, but since I didn't have any breakfast, and since I was told it starts today, My diet is starting today.  I weighed in at a respectable 299.4.  I can proudly say that, even at my heaviest, I never broke 300 pounds :P

Crawling back...

...with my tail between my legs.  So I gained all the weight back and then some.  No excuse really.  I just didn't care after a while.  Frankly, I just didn't have the discipline anymore.  So I got big, again.  So I called the HMR people and was admitted into the program, again. So I have asked myself all sorts of questions:

• What's different about this time? 
• I'm older, wiser, know I have a problem with food, know I can't lose weight and keep it off by myself. 
• Neck deep in grad school.  This will either really work in my favor or really work against me.
• I have larger goals outside of getting laid.  Yeah yeah yeah, it's vulgar but really, my only motivation for losing weight the first couple rounds was to improve my prospects with the ladies.  Well, I've since learned that you don't have to be skinny to get lucky.  Sure it's a bit easier, but not necessary.
• My goal now is to get skinny so I can get better jobs.  It's Science!
• So I can earn my private pilots license.  The less you weigh the more gas you can carry
• Avoid the diabetes, heart disease, liver disease, etc.
• Get laid, OK well not laid exactly, but certainly pursue a healthy, long-term relationship with a member of the opposite sex.
• Are my priorities screwed up?  Perhaps, but these are good goals I think.
• What are you going to do different from before?
• Shakes only until 200, transition to healthy solutions at 199.  I think I made my goals too large.  Breaking the goals down to smaller, more manageable pieces.
• No Cheating, do what I'm told.
• Attempt to be less judgmental of the other people who whine and complain in class... maybe... probably not
• I'm throwing away my scale:  I wrestled throughout high school.  I learned all sorts of tricks to drop a quick 2 or 3 pounds in an hour or so.  I used some of these tricks to come in under weight for my HMR weigh ins.  Not the best idea.  By throwing away my scale, I will not know my weight, ergo, cannot utilize tricks to drop a couple pounds in a pinch, thus keeping me honest.

So that's the plan.  I'll amend this post as necessary. I'm not using this to track weight loss, rather this will be where I bitch and whine about the the people who bitch and whine.  Names and locations will be change to protect the innocent :P